punksta's Xanga

MOVEMENT!

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 04:17:41 GMT

SOOOOOOOO I SAY GOOD BYE TO XANGA AND HELLO TO BLOGGER. I think it's just time for a change so check it out, sneak a peek, whatevs. I'll be blogging A LOT on there so refresh that shit like a myspace addict.

MARCXIOUS! BLOGGER!

RAIN. RAIN.

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 08:02:17 GMT

Sitting here just listening to the rain makes studying a lot easier. Although it adds noise, I find it peaceful, kind of serene, because nature intended for you to hear it. All I want to do is relax in bed and sleep, but I have to keep telling myself that this paper wont write itself. So I'm here on xanga, writing more lines of words, some making sense, some sounding like a page from the eternal sunshine on the spotless mind. But it's the ideas, thoughts, words inside my head that got me really thinking about the overall feeling of 2007. Even though we are currently not finished with the year, I can't help but think how much I hated this year so far. Another year older, another year pulling away from my once youthful 21 freshness. I hate it! I never want to get old. Sounds childish, I know, but you were thinking it too once, don't lie. But i really do feel that with age comes wisdom and this year it really kicked in. I learned how family problems never go away, they just get buried, only to resurface another day. I learned that friends can be your best companions, but can also be your worst enemies. I learned that things are not "okay", even though you tell people that. I learned that love doesn't exist, but merely a word to describe the connection between affection and commitment. But more importantly, I learned to be optimistic. Your family, friends, work, school, or lovers might not be perfect, but you still have them. And that's better than not having any. Right? HAHA. O geez, did that make sense? (reads sentence over again). Well, you get what I mean. I really just want to start 2008 fresh and put every little negative thing behind. You know, like that morning after the rain feeling.

PRELUDE

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 09:06:53 GMT

I'm getting too old to be going to dance competitions. I remember being that young and thinking you can dance forever. I also remember going to these things and seeing familiar faces, now its all new people and I'll see a few heads and go like "where the fuck is so and so?" I also can't yell anymore, I almost lost my voice trying to yell "work it". haha. lameeee. i hate cold weather. But at least you have a reason to wear that jacket. OH AND where the hell are these kiddies shopping at? And where did they get all that money? Back in my days you went shopping with the parentals like 4 times a year, not including SALE days, and you bought clothes from whatever store they went in. So you were stuck with the same clothes for like 3 months, or until another sale came along. Damn rich brats. BUT at least one positive note: the future is going to be filled with people that can dance AND look good too. you GO kiddies, stay addicted to dancing, not drugs. woot.

i love sales!

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 06:20:05 GMT

So I thought I missed out on some good sales from this past weekend. I really wanted to go to the Obey Sale and I was hella pissed i missed the Paul Frank Warehouse Sale....BUT OMG the SALE GODS took pity on me and decided to give me one more chance:

GET YO CASH OUT PEOPLE. AND GET THERE EARLY. I HATE WAITING IN LINES. LET'S GO. I'LL DRIVE, I STILL HAVE MY RENTAL. HAHA.

WTF. OMG. SRLY???

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 09:04:04 GMT

DUDE I WAS TOTALLY CLOSE TO FINISHING UP A TOTALLY AWESOME ENTRY. LIKE TOTALLY IN YO FACE DRAMA SHIT DETAILS AND MORE. BUT MY COMPUTER FROZE AND I HAD TO RESTART! WTF. RIGHT.

THAT MEANS I HAVE TO GET A LAPTOP. AND I WANT TO SWITCH TO APPLE. THEN WE CAN TAKE THOSE CLICHE MAC PICS THAT PEOPLE PUT ON THEIR MYSPACE. NOTE TO SELF: MAC PICTURES THAT MAKE YOUR LIPS REAL FAT AND YOUR FOREHEAD READ SMALL ADDS TO A REALLY SEXY MYSPACE PICTURE. OR NOT.

IN THE ENTRY PRE-STUPID-COMPUTER-DRAMA-SHIT, I HAD STARTED WRITING ABOUT HOW I ALWAYS BLOG WHEN THERE IS SOMETHING BAD GOING ON IN MY LIFE. LIKE HOW NOTHING POSITIVE EVER COMES OUT OF MY WRITING. OR HOW I ALWAYS START MY ENTRIES WITH SOME WHINING AND A LITTLE BIT OF *SIGH*'S HERE AND THERE. I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A "GOOD" DAY ENTRY...BUT UNFORTUNATELY YA'LL WILL HAVE TO READ THAT ANOTHER DAY.

DON'T YOU JUST LOVE CAPS? I THINK IT CONVEYS MY FRUSTRATION. EVEN THOUGH YOU CAN'T SEE MY UNHAPPY FACE. PLUS FOR AN OLD GEEZER LIKE ME I NEED ALL THE EXTRA HELP IN TEXT THAT I CAN GET. WHERE'S MY CENTRUM VITAMINS. HOLLER.

CAR ACCIDENT: MY DODGE NEON BECOMES JUNK, PERSON WHO HIT MY CAR HAD A TACOMA, DRIVING AN '08 NISSAN ALTIMA HYBRID AS RENTAL, LOOKING TO BUY A NEW TC, CIVIC, OR SOME OTHER RICE ROCKET.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST. THE DRAMA. WHICH BY NOW SEEMS REALLY TIRESOME. BUT THAT'S MAINLY BECAUSE THIS IS MY SECOND TIME WRITING ABOUT IT. LONG STORY SHORT: THEY WERE SHADY BLAH BLAH BLAH, I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY DID THAT YADA YADA YADA, THEY DESERVE TO BE HATED ON...ETC ETC. I THINK THE ONLY THING I CAN DO NOW IS TO FORGIVE AND FORGET. SO I WANNA FORGIVE YOU, AND I WANNA FORGET YOU.

(AND YES, TEAM LC STILL ROCKS)

JUST IN CASE YOU ARE PART OF THAT SMALL PERCENTAGE OF THE WORLD THAT DOES NOT KNOW I AM NOW ON A SIDEKICK...HERE IS YOUR MEMO:

TEXT ME, EMAIL ME, CHAT ME, BUT DON'T CALL ME, I'M LOW ON MINUTES.

PEACE!

- MARCXIOUS

PS: FEED THE BEAST! COMING SOON!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 18:42:09 GMT

so my current situation: parents refuse to do anything that requires them to reach into their wallets and help me out with school tuition, book payments, and/or car related expenses. totally out of left field i know right. that leaves me with this tuition balance that i need to pay off, leaving my funds depleted. i don't even know where i'm gonna get money for books. and lately i've been getting into things i thought i would never even dreamed of doing. drugs are not an option anymore, but at this rate i wont be surprised if they drive me into some kind of addiction. no more stoges, that shit's expensive too. its hard to quit cold turkey though. but i really have to do it. its about time i prove to my family that i can survive without them. but even the most cruel parents help out their children in any way they can. i think mine will forever disown me, and now it doesn't even phase me, i knew it a long time ago, i should have moved away the first chance i had. so now where are we? hiatus mode til... im guessing...november. its gonna be hard but at least this way i can focus on school, work, and my internship. after all is said and done, at the end of the day, i'm still me but just a boring version for now.

end.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 06:56:43 GMT

* i guess staying home last night was NOT an option. haha. good, fun, random times.

* BUT...i hate this shit. so first it was boardners. and then now at bridges. fuck that shit. racist son of a bitch. one of these days i'm bout to explode with some information on your so called social and racial division.

* foreal though, let me rest. i really really need to stop going out. the end.

* note to self: vegas in two weeks. hell fuckin YES.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 02:08:53 GMT

* so i guess i'm stuck at home tonight. sister's bday party. come eat some hella good filipino grub!

* that's what i get for going out like every night. broke status. like...its almost negative.

* oh ya downtown fullerton really IS the hot spot.

* back to gym mode. catch me on the treadmills getting my sweat on.

* oh and edc was the shit. good vibes. good friends. but ya, something i NEVER thought i would be doing.

* upgraded to a better office at work. plus my raise. omfg. makes the day go a lot better. but i wont get paid until friday, so im broke until then. don't be all mad and shit if i don't grace you with my presence. haha. unless you pay for me. holla.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 04:13:14 GMT

9.47pm

SO i decided to do some blogging because of happyslip. haha. work is hella intense. why are they making me work so much??? lately i've been doing 8am (sometimes 9) to 5pm shifts. thats hella overkill...for me. i used to go on myspace and read celebrity gossip all the freakin time...now all the fun i have is talking to this old lady in the office...why is she fun? because she's my source of office gossip. haha. seriously, she can spit some mad disses. i bet she talks shit on me too.

STARTING to play tennis again. after how many years??? luckily i still have my racket and balls. yuppp. time to start losing some mad pounds. im fat. and now i can SKATE. haha really! well, i aint like ROB but shooot now all i need is a BIG friend. (shoot, if y'all aint got MTV then how y'all supposed to get that joke? SHOOOT...you trippin).

SCHOOL may be over but i still got a grip of shit to accomplish. like summer school...which i havent even registered for yet. cypress anyone? and i havent fully made my schedule for fall. AND i dont know if i should continue nursing. dun dun dun. oh wont my momma be proud. i need to move to a different city and just see what opportunities await me.

I AM so tired of the scene. and don't y'all look at me like im crazy. every week its go here go there and WTF i see the same people all the damn time. and lately since work got me all tired and shit maybe i just wanna stay home but obviously that comes as a shock to some people. listen people, you don't need none of that glitz and fame.....

....oh wtf yes you do. and if you got it then get your party on bitch. as for me, i aint getting any younger so let me just chill.

OOOHwee by the way did you hear about all the events this week??? OH dang my wallet better be flowing because there are way too many things to do this week... EDC on saturday. LETS DO THIS!

ok one last thing...NEW PICTURES on myspace. haha. OH AND please stop flooding my bulletin board. we don't need any of your "goodnight myspace world" or "heres another long ass survey because im bored" bulletins. NO MORE! y'all needs to go read a book or something.

peace.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 02:40:12 GMT

song: love rain-jill scott

movie: my sassy girl

at the moment...bored. but happy. =)

i think.