Sitting here just listening to the rain makes studying a lot easier. Although it adds noise, I find it peaceful, kind of serene, because nature intended for you to hear it. All I want to do is relax in bed and sleep, but I have to keep telling myself that this paper wont write itself. So I'm here on xanga, writing more lines of words, some making sense, some sounding like a page from the eternal sunshine on the spotless mind. But it's the ideas, thoughts, words inside my head that got me really thinking about the overall feeling of 2007. Even though we are currently not finished with the year, I can't help but think how much I hated this year so far. Another year older, another year pulling away from my once youthful 21 freshness. I hate it! I never want to get old. Sounds childish, I know, but you were thinking it too once, don't lie. But i really do feel that with age comes wisdom and this year it really kicked in. I learned how family problems never go away, they just get buried, only to resurface another day. I learned that friends can be your best companions, but can also be your worst enemies. I learned that things are not "okay", even though you tell people that. I learned that love doesn't exist, but merely a word to describe the connection between affection and commitment. But more importantly, I learned to be optimistic. Your family, friends, work, school, or lovers might not be perfect, but you still have them. And that's better than not having any. Right? HAHA. O geez, did that make sense? (reads sentence over again). Well, you get what I mean. I really just want to start 2008 fresh and put every little negative thing behind. You know, like that morning after the rain feeling.